HE is here...

Bawre ne bahot tadpaya,

Milne ko itne saal tarsaya;

Magar pyar ki barsaat lekar,

Aakhir wo aa gaya!!!!

In whose thoughts & imagination, I wrote so many poems; in whose anticipation, I wrote so many blog posts, finally when he arrived in my life, I was speechless and could not write any post for last many months.

Yes, I am talking about my life partner. I finally found the one! I mentioned in my post "I don't know how this works and how it will work for me. I am just waiting to find the one and then may be share how this gamble works. Or may be I should just wait for 'the one' to find me instead I looking :-)"

Indeed, I kept wondering what's going to happen and how will it really be! Honestly, It happened as it was supposed to happen! Without any pre-planning, without any questions or screening process, without any horoscope match or photo check, it happened on its own.

One thing that I want to mention here though - I never stopped my efforts of involving in arrange marriage. I believe in the message from Bhagwad Gita that "Karma kiye ja" yes..! only thing in my control was to try & I did.

To all my friends out there, please don't be disappointed ever due to arrange marriage process steps. It will happen as it is designed for you.

Trust me! Life changes too fast! Just go with it. What you have today is God's grace and what you won't have tomorrow would be God's purpose.

Have faith & give your heart 'Love' wings, Love will come to you!

Keep Smiling,
Krupa

Wishing myself...

Coming back seems difficult. I am away from my blog for so many months and years. It's been some block and I don't seem to overcome it so far.

One more attempt I am making today.

Wishing myself good luck...
Krupa

Sadness spread!

In my life, I have had really interesting journey so far! Lot of years passed by. In the search of 'what to search for'. I missed a lot and I felt I wanted so less, I wanted so much and I felt I got so less. I got so much and I felt how to use that much!

Yeah!!!

Sometimes too deep and sometimes very abstract understanding about what's happening inside of me. In this journey, I learned a lot. Many times I felt, I received enough learning and I am really done! What more can I get? Not knowing what lies ahead of me, it was always the sadness underneath ambiguity.

Although I carried greatly happy attitude towards life, I conquered all the sad events in life, I still can not like ambiguity in life. I know there is something called patience but sigh! me and patience... one difficult area where I still struggle.

After n number of years wait, I have found some real strong and 'for-life' source of happiness, I am very happy. But the ambiguity still does not leave me and sadness tries to spread under that cover.

What do I do?

~Krupa

My Latest Latest latest crush...!!! ;-)

When I saw this one, I ran out of words... YES!! "ME" ran out of words.. this song has stolen my heart right now. (well of course, I run out of words so many times and that's why no blog post for last 1.5 months... :-))

I am sooooooo in love with it... Wow!! What a combination of Art, Talent, Beauty, Voice, Music, Dance, Expression, grand glamour... I am surely going to theater to see the grant set up by Sanjay Leela whenever it is released... No matter what movie is and how its story is... I am confident that the set up would be something so glamorous...

Check out this song that I am talking about:
http://www.lyricsmasti.com/song/7437/get_lyrics_of_Udi-Neendein.html

&
Short videos of the same..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6uFy-kMw6o0

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GLQx4M94DZM

Cheers

This one is my latest latest crush!!!

~Krupa

If you do not feel LIFE after listening to this song, tell me about it... ha ha.. I bet you will!!!

The Soul still does talk.....

Ji haan! bilkul dhadkan si zinda hai! 
Mere mann ki aavaz, abhi bhi sunai deti hai,


So few of you were asking me, why am I not writing anything on my blog lately and if the soul stopped talking ? :-) Nope!!!  Very much not! My soul still does talk and I am alive! 
I just was busy lately and then when I got time, I felt there was still something wrong or missing. 
Before I come back with a bang, I thought let me say hello at least :-)

Take care & Keep smiling in life...
~Krupa

... Mania

Just realized one thing.. that I use '...' a lot in my blogging and chatting and nowadays in official emails also :-)

... finally I wrote something after so many days. Ever since I came back to India, there is lot of work and even though I get internet access, I don't get time to think about anything but work. But my restlessness was increasing and finally I am here today :) (Feels Home!!!)

Well I think "!" is also another character that I use a lot ;-)

Koi  nai... have fun ji...!! :D

~Krupa

A Hug n Care

In India or may be just in the society that I have come across so far, we don't have very open acceptance of this very beautiful expression called 'Hug!'. And I wonder why?

A Hug (called "Jaadu ki Jhappi" in Munnabhai MBBS movie) is an expression that takes away all formalities, it gives comfort and it reduces stress in so many situations. It's like an "all izz well" situation in 3 Idiots movie. You hug someone and you say it briefly that you care.. or you are thankful.. or you are there or you understand them.
Honestly, how important that moment is for the other person is not easy to guess but I can promise that it makes a big difference.

I also do not encourage hugging someone you are not comfortable with. I am just saying that many times, if you recall, at the time of saying bye to your close friends or even some other close ones, do you not feel that your heart will feel better if you hug them once? But those times, I have seen it not very easily acceptable to the majority around. I can't get any answer. It just feels narrow minded. I really don't know the thinking on other side...  so can't say more.

But in this attached picture, doesn't a hug look like the best expression ever?

~Krupa

Gurantee for my Smile :-)

All of us go through an up and a down of life. If something's not too big event, we go through a small version of it called low mood and normal happy mood/happy mood.

For the 'up' feel and normal happy mood, there is nothing needed. But whenever we face a low mood, we need something to cheer us up. I am sure, in these 25+ years of life, all of us may have already figured out what works for us in such mood! We know that there is something/someone who can bring a smile back on our face.

• Is it talking to someone close to you ?
• Is it small walk alone or with some friend ?
• Is it some outing ?
• Is it sleeping ? watching tv ?
• Taking shower ? (Don't laugh.. I have a friend for whom this works big time! :-))
• Or what?

There is something that surely works for us all the times.

For me that 1 thing is "Music". Krazzy after 'sound', deeply in love with raaga and beats, fanatic about lyrics, I breathe in Music. Generally, songs with happy lyrics or motivating lyrics does the effect of an "Injection" - while other nice numbers in installment are like regular medicine dose. :-)

So music is my secret mantra which gurantees a smile on my face! Latest one still playing in my head is "Mustafa Mustafa... " (in Hindi) from movie Duniya Dilwalon ki. Lyrics of this one is awesome! 2nd Stanza telling about ~ how life moves on like a train and stations like 'sadness' and 'happiness' keep coming... so keep going! hmm.. Lovely!

Now tell me, What works for you?

(By the way, I found out that many of you read my blog secretly but never put any comment... please go ahead and find yourself comfortable to post some anonymous comment also ;-))

~Krupa

Check-in & a hand bag

It's been 6 BIG years that I am away from my parents. They already feel that they have done Kanya daan and my company is my mother-in-law :-) In fact, this mother-in-law is cool who pays me lot of money every month :D

During this 6 years of IT career, I have shifted 7 times to a different apartment. Setting up the basic amenities/furniture, electricity connection, gas connection, internet connection, talking to apartment offices or brokers etc... I am PRO now :) Initially I had lot of belongings, a lot to pack if I move. But slowly I realized that I don't need that much. Lesser the luggage easier to move-in or out. Nowadays I can easily fit myself in 2 check-in bags and 1 hand bag and then I am set to move anywhere!

To some extent I realized that we really don't need a lot of things in our day to day lives. We keep on increasing liabilities in the name of investment. So I (the great philosopher ;-)) say, enjoy lesser liabilities and relax with your loved ones. At the end of the day, your family's love is all you want...

After achieving much satisfaction in my career, I also feel that now I want a short PAUSE and not move to many apartments.

"I wanna go home"....
~Krupa

Estimation Skills

Sunday Morning has taught me how important is Estimation in life at any stage ;-)

By even one inch, I can get in trouble!

There is a concept of Class 1 estimate which means from your initial estimation you can vary +/- 50%. But in life situations like this, even 1% variation is risky :)

I am working on improving my skills now...

Cheers
~Krupa

Sunday Morning ~

Change is only Constant -- I keep proving :)

It was really a Dhamal! I did not want to open my eyes, but God made me open my eyes so wide that I didn't just wake up but I had an awakening :)

Yeah, I am talking about my 'parakrama' yesterday morning. On a Sunday morning, I was not in a mood to wake up early. Sun started rising and I realized the brightness will not let me sleep more. So I got up to close the curtains. After closing them, with my eyes closed, with full confidence about my bed's location, I tried to lie down again. And yeah, my estimation skills had gone for a toss for sure! I was 20 inches over in my estimation. I fell next to the bed with huge 'dhadam' noise. I could not get up, nor make any other shouting, nothing! But God is with me! My friend came running from other room and took care of me.

I have almost 2.5 inches scar on my back. (although it's superficial enough, it's a scar to cause some suffering for 2 days minimum). Plywood of the bed hit me hard and sharp too.

Since I was very ready to go back to sleep, my speed and force was stronger. This force only caused shock and pain. Had some fainting and nausea and then we went to hospital. After some dressing, X-ray, and 2 injections I was back home.

Since yesterday, every time I go near curtains or come back to my bed, I keep eyes wide open, balance my self on my feet and then walk :D... Experience teaches a lot, isn't it ? ;-)

Nothing to worry anymore, I shall be up and running in 2 days.

Cheers,
Krupa

Life and Vacation

I am going to India for a month on vacation and I am very happy about it. I wanted to do Navaratri in my hometown for last many years and finally I am getting that chance. I am flying to India in 2 weeks.

Someone asked me on previous post's comment that what is life according me?

Life is beyond logic! When I have done things that have no logic, I have felt so light. This weightlessness is 'Life' according to me. Note that I am not talking work or study that we do everyday. Basically, doing things spontaneously is Life.

We put conditioning and filtering to come to a conclusion, so much of planning for finances to secure our future, so much of psychological worry to only realize in the end that it was not worth. Living in the moment, spontaneously is something that is our true nature and we have forgotten that big time under the layers of society and drama.

What else can I say about this subject... If I do it will be too much of logic and :) no more light... so I will conclude it here only.

Looking forward to a trip to India and having lots of fun.. "Vacation" in real sense :-)

...Blissful...

~Krupa~

Name of My Blog

When I named my Blog - I named it as "Soul Thoughts" -- meaning the thoughts of my soul. I had great inner chattering, many questions, many philosophical ideas and lot more. My imagination did not stop and I continued writing many posts.

For almost a year now, thoughts have decreased. Please note that my thinking has not stopped. As I recently heard in Swamiji's Video that Thoughts and thinking are different. Truly I felt the difference. Even when you are not thinking you could have thoughts. This video is big one and you can watch it at leisure. But for your reference what I am talking, comes between 25 to 35 minutes of the video.

Paramhamsa Nithyananda is the Guru (Enlightened Master) I have met in this life time. I am so fortunate to know him. Life quality has changed. My surroundings have transformed and I can enjoy everyone around me. (there are still instances when I face low mood but that frequency has decreased to a large extent)

You can watch His Videos here or here.

Simple and strong Meditation techniques, workshops and just the spiritual talk itself can lead to greater truths of life. I feel like living in ecstacy when I am meditating or internalizing the teachings of the Master, teachings of God Shiva, Teachings of God Krishna. It's lovely. Please try attending basic level of meditation programs. Worth spending 2 days of your 50+ years life. Experience it yourself.

God Bless us all! Hope we all could reach a stage of reducing thoughts or reach to a no thought stage and live in Present Moment.

...Keep Smiling...

Krupa

Rubik's Revenge Completed

So it happened that after clearing 4 sides; I was struggling with the last two and I had reached a dead lock situation. Nothing was working for the two sides unless I break other already made sides. I tried to create some new technique and I messed up completely. I had to start ALL OVER AGAIN from First level.

Anyhow, Since I wanted to do it once in my life time; I decided to do it again.

And that memorable day for me had come -- it was 7th March Morning and I fixed all the sides of the Puzzle.

I have made a big hype about this Rubik's revenge on my blog I know; but for me this success was a small reason to add confidence in me and my capabilities. I am very very very happy with my achievement :)

~Cheers

Krupa

Rubik's Revenge Continues...

So, I fixed two more sides ....,
Green, White & Yellow!
Blue, Red and Orange on their way~

Hurray!!! :-) "I truly love myself for this effort" ha ha.....

~Krupa~

What a Productive Weekend ~

I was really tired after the Sunday errands. I did Laundry, Grocery and also explored a beautiful area in the neighborhood. I came back home and I have not even arranged my wardrobe after laundry.

I was sleepy; but I did not sleep; because otherwise my Sunday night sleep gets ruined. So, anyway, after something here and there, I started with my Rubik's Revenge where I was struggling to get '1' LAST face piece in its correct position. There was lovely music playing on my laptop. I tried many techniques and still that one piece is not working.

After a while I found myself upset leaning on the table with eyes closed. But then I got up and thought, let me try all over again!

It was around 4:25 PM on historic Sunday evening; I just had to do two moves on two sides of the puzzle and look what I got!!!!!!!!!!!!! I solved Top Layer of Rubik's Revenge 4x4 with all 16 pieces in the correct position.

There are 4 corner pieces, 8 edge pieces and 4 face pieces. If you understand this, corner piece has 3 sides with different color, edge piece has 2 different colors and getting face pieces is a challenge in itself.

In this Puzzle, it can not come correct if every piece is NOT in its correct position; so it's not like we can manage with the puzzle by shuffling left-2nd row edge piece and left-3rd row edge piece. Nah! That does not help.

If you remember, In January I mentioned that I was just away from 2 face pieces mispositioned but those 2 took a long time. (Not that I worked for it all these 2 months but still!)

Now, who wants to call me 'wanna-be geek' ? --- You are FREE to say that :) :) :) You can not imagine how happy I am right now!

"Believe that nothing is impossible and work towards it!" ~ Having that attitude is important, not the end result itself; and then end result follows! (I know I am talking too much for a small victory... but well that's how I am)

(I also added few gadgets on my blog and put the link for subscription -- and these all count to productivity of the weekend too :P )

~Krupa~

Smile and Spread the smile

It was Saturday morning and around 11 AM; I was on a walk to a grocery store and what do I see -- only silent road; few old couple with a dog and some cars on the road.

It was horribly silent and this neighborhood is so depressing, specially in this season of the year when the trees have not yet turned green and when the humid of Houston rain takes over the freshness of the air.

Hmm... That was 'me'; crying for the surroundings. But better space and greener world is inside me; I don't need to get affected by the outside colors.

However, in reality we do want to see things green around us and smiling around us; that gives us energy. And the best idea is to start doing our own share of spreading that smile and color.

Do this for me, "Smile and Spread the smile! Make someone's day!" You never know that someone may meet someone else and that someone can meet other someone and eventually that 'smile' may come to me! :-)
Keep enjoying the inner space ~ You will surely radiate in the outside world!

~Krupa~
(I don't know where I started this post and where I ended.. but surely the end message is important ;-))

I am Alive ~

My dear blog, this is a sincere apology to you since I had gone to hibernation for a long time. This year, ever since started, God knows when! (Probably on 1st Jan) has been the time full of some work. It's been a fruitful year considering career and the opportunities that came my way. Thanks to God & this universe for everything!

Writing is my hobby and that's why I started putting my thoughts on this blog. Whatever work I am doing currently, involves lot of typing and when I come back home after work, I just don't feel like typing anymore. It has been the struggle within, trust me, when I don't write!

So... "I am Alive". Stay tuned.. and I am back :-)
~Krupa

Kissed my soul ~

Gorgeous that smile,
Dreamful those eyes,
He whispered in my life,
& kissed my soul!

Ups & downs - he is right here ~
Always beside me!
He is in me & he is around me,
He became unsaid words of my life,
& kissed my soul!

I am mad in his arms
I am mad for his words,
I am in love with everything,
& 'Everything' involves his love!

Feeling is endless
Eternal is his memory
He really made my life
& kissed my soul!

Thankful to God!

~KrupA

Mere Dil ki Pukar ~ Returns!! -- contd ...

Sigh!!...

It does not feel great to share with you that banging the iPod idea did not work for me yet.

I am missing my iPod terribly, however in this phase of life when I am too away from my iPod, I seek your help. Please pray that I get some way out to repair my iPod and get a life back to it.

Thank you
Krupa